why

What am I doing.

Two disclaimers right out of the gates. 

1. I do not read anything I have written once I have written it, so good luck. 

2. I enjoy employing improper grammar, words, and sentence structure to make a point. 

The past few weeks I have found myself ending each day tired. That's odd for me to say for a handful of reasons, chief of these being that I’ve been tired for 6 years. Or maybe 7, however long I have been married for. Couldn't tell you that number. This is not an insult to my wife, whom I love, but honestly just because since I have been married I have been on a rollercoaster of creating a life for us. Now my wife also plays an equal part in this rollercoaster, but as the side of the coin that really focuses on breaking into new frontier for us, I have been in a constant state of aggressive expansionism since our union. This is an incredible reference to europa universalis 4, a game that probably only one person knows about, yet one that has instructed me intimately on my God-given natural strengths and weaknesses in business. 

Currently I have found myself in this new heightened state of fatigue due to the fact that in addition to my role and duties at Commoner Co, and a bit of real estate still, apparently I am a farmer now. When writing that sentence I did not enjoy adding the word, “ apparently”, as it seemed to lessen the dramatic choppiness of the sentence, and I love throwing out choppy sentences here and there ever since I read Herodotus as a college pup. I also love super strung out sentences that make you feel like your talking to a person because of Tolkien. But the word, “apparently” is actually the most important part of that sentence. This is because of that feeling many of us experience; that life has been laid out before us, and we walk our  paths day after day as if pursuing the source by a string. Now for me, that string is super knotted, has lots of prickly thorns stuck in it from being dragged through some brush, and has stupid invisible sections in it, but still the feeling remains the same. For years, I have woken up starting my days in a sprint, and ya I am thinking and strategizing along the way, but not enough to NOT be surprised when I find myself chasing cows on my new farm at 1:00 am in the morning after working a 14 hour day running the main business and cooking whatever random fermented ingredient Luke decided to give me that day. 

To counteract the argument that I am stupid for doing all of this at once, I am stupid, but also there is a reason and a point. I am being 100% honest when I say that after my wife, child, and unborn children, much of my life is lived for my team and the things we can accomplish together. This is a different topic, but I really do believe we have suffered a great divorce in modernity between our “lives” and our work. We work the 9-5 in hopes of enjoying the 6-10, plus some bonus content on the weekends. I don’t say this with judgment, and I don't believe I am living in perfect accordance to some idea of the “good life”, but again I am being honest when I say that this desire to do exciting and challenging work with my team, is a massive part of my life and why Sandra and I do what we do. And I am part of an incredibly talented and passionate team, so doing my part to steward this exciting future is a big deal to me. 

So why start the farm, and why right now? Two honest reasons. First off, because Sandra led me to believe it would be the best way to live our lives together, raise our children, and enjoy our family. And secondly, because I had the vision to see that it had the highest potential of creating the most exciting opportunities possible for my team as we continue to grow and find our path. 

So now I start and end my days watering troughs, cleaning coops, collecting eggs, moving animals across pastures, building stuff with scrap wood, fixing fences, and chasing cows, etc. 

-Adam